Stigma

In this hustle culture, we as a society have made the idea of 'having stress' as something admirable. Having a lot of things in our hands, having a busy schedule. Since when did it become the new 'cool', the new 'successful'?  Many people may deny this but if you give long, serious thought to this, you'll realize that it is true. People talk about wanting a peaceful life but how is it possible until they stop making stress and being busy their USP. Until they stop showing off and bragging about it.  The cases of depression, anxiety, and other thought disorders saw a huge peak during the lockdown period. Why? Because they finally got a tranquil environment to live in?  Or because maybe we are too focused on our persona, on how we want other people to perceive us, and not on how we are as a person.  Now, who do we prove ourselves to?  I'm not saying that you should just sit idle in your room watching Grey's anatomy but just a plea - Can we please stop ...

Sometimes the world and the society convinces me that I’m wrong for the way I think, for the way I believe in things, for the way I love. There are days when these comments fill up my head making me feel disappointed with myself. I start pointing out flaws in myself and eventually get depressed and anxious about my entire existence. I begin overthinking. I begin doing things that I wouldn’t normally do to please others. I begin hating myself. I begin feeling as though I’m living a ‘wrong’ life. These opinions of the people and the society start messing with my thoughts and my faith. However, I try to remind myself that- this is MY life. I am not supposed to follow others’ path or others’ way of living. It doesn’t matter if I don’t have determined goals. It doesn’t matter if I fail to make everyone like me. It isn’t necessary for me to fulfill others’ desires. It doesn’t matter if my definition of a happy life is different than others. It doesn’t matter if I am better or worse than ...

I feel myself changing. You ever felt that. Its like I am two complete different people and I don’t know which one is the real me. One of it wants to get work done, study,  go out, work towards my goals, be productive. But the other one makes me feel worthless and disappointed in myself every time I try to do something. Its true anxiety and depression make the worst combination. I have no control of whats going on. I know some people might have it worse than me but that does not make my pain any less valid. It feels like an endless circle of weakness, sadness, disappointment and worthlessness. I cant tell if its killing me or making me stronger. I always try to control things but it ends up controlling me. I should stop just let go of things that I cant control and give it all to Him. And so should y’all. I’m the person who talks people into self-love. I truthfully assure everyone how wonderful they are, because I don’t want people to feel the way I do right now. I unintentiona...